The Fight We Came Here For

I’ve been alluding to this for years, but I’m noticing once again how what’s going on in the world hits me the hardest during winter. It's a season of depth, a time when we are plummeted to the depths of the ocean, and we land on the earth at the bottom of the deepest sea of our own inner world, contemplating our shadows that are being triggered by the world around us. The quiet of winter allows our stillness to bring us to a place where we feel it, witness it all.

The times that we are living through right now are dark, confusing, and frightening, and they’re also times that have happened before. I believe we’re reliving the same cycle that occurred hundreds of years ago, during the witch trials. It’s the same game. It’s a different movie with different players but the same theme. I believe that this moment, this fight, is why we’ve returned to live in the world at this time. We as witches now have the opportunity to show the world a new way. This is a spiritual war. 

An Age Of Awakening

Many of us in spiritual communities have been watching, discerning, listening over the last eight years or so, treading between the lines of what we felt would come in this age of Aquarius: a mass awakening. None of us knew exactly what that would look like. Yet here we are, cringing as what’s been hidden becomes exposed.

And for many, witnessing each new horror is also deeply triggering, bringing up painful memories of what we ourselves have endured. I regularly cast circles with other women to create a safe place where we can be vulnerable with one another, and what I’ve learned over many years is this: in any circle I sit in, more women have been sexually assaulted, abused, raped, or harmed by men than not.

I know that the women I talk to are only a small fraction of those who have suffered in this way, and I worry about those still hiding their trauma, afraid of therapy, spiritually bypassing the need for real healing, and those with repressed memories. Society is pushing back and coming together, but the sheer number of women I know who struggle breaks my heart.

Even after 20+ years of therapy, my own experiences of sexual abuse can still surface in my mind and heart, and every day that I read the news and learn about what the survivors (and those who have not survived) went through and are still going through, my emotions are triggered all over again. I feel furious and afraid, and I grieve for my younger self and the women and the children, the people I see suffering through their own current experiences or memories of abuse.

The predators being exposed at a macro level began with leaders, church leaders, officials, thousands of years ago. The problem exists in homes and communities too: bishops, priests, elders, teachers, people who groom and abuse children who trust them. It’s not only little girls; boys suffer as well. Many perpetrators were likely traumatized themselves as children. Unhealed trauma in a patriarchal society expresses differently in men and women, sometimes creating perpetrators and punishers in men, and defensive, over-masculinized responses in women. But women can also abuse; we see that in today’s revelations.

I believe a reckoning is coming, but also that we have years of waking up ahead: more secrets revealed, more stories told. Women have never needed each other more. This is not politics. Every family has its Epstein files, things we don’t talk about, narratives controlled to hide sick lies behind pretty portraits and Sunday church attendance. Kids are left in classrooms and churches with people who could be grooming them.

The Energy of Wounding

When those of us who are still struggling to heal from our own trauma are exposed to these truths, it’s normal for us to feel angry, afraid, sad, disgusted, and confused. For many, it can feel like we only have three options available to cope with what can feel like completely overwhelming information: obsess, suppress, or disconnect. Some of us are glued to our phones night and day, desperately taking in the news and stories on social media. Others are choosing to unplug from the news altogether, avoiding the triggering content but also blind to the truth of what’s unfolding each day. And some are fighting to stay informed, but are still deeply triggered regardless, and pushing those feelings down, suppressing their emotions to try to cope with the pain of holding distressing information and trying to live their everyday lives.

These three responses are all coping mechanisms that we’ve been taught in our society. We’ve been taught as women to be “good girls,” to diminish ourselves, and even to fear saying “me too.” We’ve been taught to silence ourselves, to ignore our own needs, and to suppress and push through our own pain no matter what.

I want to encourage everyone, and especially all witches, to resist responding in any of those three ways. The deeper truth that I can see from my perspective is that the elites who have been committing the atrocities we’re learning about are doing it in a large part to generate negative energy, which feeds low-level entities that they are using to stay in power. Trauma and fear, anger and grief, those emotions are like a dark cloud if you were to see their energy visually. The elites have historically weaponized such energy using rituals, blood sacrifice, and abuse to feed power structures and keep them hidden in plain sight and in leadership.

Those emotions are generated directly from those who are suffering at the hands of these elites, but also from the rest of us. As we witness the horror of what’s happening, and as our own trauma is triggered, we unknowingly produce our own low-level energy that adds to the pool that they’re siphoning from. Every strategic move the elites make is meant to destabilize us and keep them in power. It may sound woo-woo, but I know they do rituals and call in the energy we are putting out, and that energy feeds what they're doing and keeps it hidden. This is why no one has been impeached yet.

Those rituals are not, and never have been, what witches do. But evil people have used occultized practices to blame witches for the things they themselves are doing. Witches were never out to harm, only to heal and protect. We are seeing just how deep these hidden agendas go, as every day, something new is exposed.

All of this being said, those negative emotions that come up are not bad or wrong. Anger, fear, shock, horror, and grief are normal and healthy responses to what we’re witnessing. But we need to make sure those emotions aren’t getting stuck or trapped in our bodies or our energy fields. Emotion is energy in motion. We need to let our emotions move through us, and then send that energy back to the earth. That’s how we can prevent it from becoming fuel for dark entities and the people in power.

Rise In Love

My advice is to take in the information, feel all of your feelings as they come up, and then release them in whatever way feels best and most natural for you. Releasing the energy can look like journaling, screaming, stomping, painting, drawing, ecstatic dance, yelling, crying (it’s healthy to cry, don’t hold back your tears!), spending time out in nature, or any other activity that helps you move the emotions through your body so you can let them go.

I would encourage you to create a daily practice for yourself to tend to your emotions and clear your energy field. Feel the horror, then ground yourself. Spend time in quiet journaling, love every wounded part of you, and do not become addicted to social media and the news; the energy we feed matters. 

I know that many witches are aware of the surge in energy that we’re about to experience because of the annual solar/lunar eclipse portal, and that it can be tempting to try to perform rituals and spells to go on the offensive in times like this against the dark entities and the elites. But eclipses are times when energy, especially unconscious shadow, can be especially amplified, so the best thing that many of us can do (and I want to say this especially to beginner witches) is to focus inward. To make sure that we’re not feeding the low-level energy, and instead are tending to and protecting ourselves.

We must take care of ourselves now so they don’t win. Not just during the eclipse, but throughout the entirety of this dark time. Witches know energy can’t be destroyed but can be alchemized. Help others feed love; don’t ignore or bypass pain, but choose love over hate. Work with your unhealed parts when you’re triggered so the energy you send out doesn’t feed the elites’ agenda.

This is a dark season, and we know it’s going to continue to be dark and difficult for years to come. We’re fighting against evils that have been festering under the surface for centuries. But women are rising. We remember our power to create and to destroy, and there are good men rising with us, saying, “We’ve got you.” Take care of yourself. Love people. Be kind, even to assholes. Feed love, not hate, because this is why we came here now. This is the fight we came here for.