Serving the Household
By Staff Writer: Paganus Greybeard
I serve.
I serve the household.
I do what must - and needs - be done.
I serve also the Goddess as best I can.
At times that may not be very well at all.
I am told that I am a ‘White-Lighter’.
I am doing my inadequate and humble mortal best to
live-up-to and serve in that capacity and role.
But as a mortal I am clearly not always very
much of the ‘White’.
In many ways - so very often - I am still very
much what I consider to be the ‘Grey-Lighter’.
I still have many clashes with my ‘inner darkest demon’.
The ‘anger inside’ is still very much there.
I am constantly ‘on watch’ to keep my ‘inner anger’
from coming out and taking over my personality and life.
I also serve my Editorial Mistress.
I am a Writer/Contributor.
I am the Group Moderator and an Administrator
for the MysticWitch.comn forum.
I serve in many people in many ways.
It is - however - at ‘home’ - in the ‘household’ -
that I find myself at most in service.
My parents are elderly.
Much that they used to be able to do -
they now can no longer do.
I do errands.
I feed the birds at night when I return
‘home’ from here at this ‘cyber-cafe’.
I tend Sherri and Serena - the cats.
I tend Penny-Pup - the dog.
I do ‘mail & errand'’runs’.
I tend to the household in the middle of the night
when that is needed and necessary.
When they are gone for the day I stay at home -
I do not leave until they return.
The ‘household’ is not left untended and unserved.
I serve also by avoiding the anger and fury that
I am so capable of.
Last year - at this time - I had a real battle
with that ‘inner darkest demon’.
That ‘inner darkest demon’ is NOT coming out to visit
this time this year.
I must - at all times - remain in total and complete
control. That ‘inner demon’ is far too dark and deadly
to ever come out for a visit ever again.
So - in a way - I serve the household by something I am not
doing. I am avoiding problems and hassles. This year that
is very critically important. The health of the parents
is delicate - to be diplomatic and discrete.
I cannot afford any hassles.
Therefore - I serve the household by avoiding and preventing hassles.
Another way I serve is in these late afternoon and early evening
‘visits’ to this ‘cybernetic-cafe’. By being here for two hours
per day I am doing two (2) things. I am out of the household
and thusly not there for problems to even begin - and I am here
working for the Mistress & the Goddess. That is also a excellent
way and means to keep that deadly ‘inner darkest demon’ under permanent
control.
I serve the Goddess - in all Her Aspects and Forms - by being the
best possible ‘White-Lighter’ I can be.
I serve the Mistress by being the best Writer/Moderator/Administrator
I can possibly be.
I serve the Household by being the best possible Son to the Parents I
can be.
I am the Paganus.
I am the Greybeard.
I do what I must do.
I serve many in many ways.